My Diary

Aug 16, 20261 Entry

Aug 16, 2026

Prayer for Strength and Mercy

Maybe I will transfer over the brief handwritten entry I made yesterday, or maybe I won’t: it was brief and merely ‘set the stage’, analyzing the medium of writing physically with no real substance, …

Aug 7, 20261 Entry

Aug 7, 2026

Meditations on Christ and Adherence to His Commandments

Lord, today, like other days, I have received your brief, but clear illumination and even pangs of conviction, which I entertain but safely at a distance. The discrepancy or distance I know is of my …

Jul 18, 20261 Entry

Jul 18, 2026

Is it Time to Journal?

I wonder if this is a good time to be “journaling” as it were, my mind in some altered state, primarily having taken everything that I felt I needed on a sedatory basis—just enough to hit that partic…

Jul 17, 20261 Entry

Jul 17, 2026

Confession at Holy Spirit Church

My body moves too quickly, too many substances competing inside of me. I need the Lord’s grace. I need to be cleansed, not just of mind but of spirit and physically—this I know for sure. It is withou…

Mar 20, 20261 Entry

Mar 20, 2026

Sobering Realizations Upon Observations

For the past 5, going on 6 years my life has once again been dominated by my desire to use drugs. This had become quite clear and evident when I revisited the vast catalogue of images saved to my iCl…

Feb 5, 20261 Entry

Feb 5, 2026

Honesty With Myself

If I’m going to be brutally honest with myself, I am comfortably addicted to drugs, and while this has not caused massive, destructive upheavals in my life like alcohol did (which I ceased using over…

Jan 28, 20261 Entry

Jan 28, 2026

Regarding Romance

Today a thought occurred to me to pull up masters of songs I had created over the years which had been implemented by a man I found on Fiverr referred to as Neks who did an absolutely fantastic job w…

Jan 22, 20262 Entries

Jan 22, 2026

After Having Used the App

Doing a bit of thinking here on the vastly latter part of my day after having used this application a bit in the evening. After consulting, probing with the insights generator, I am once again confro…

Jan 22, 2026

4K Resolution Note

Messing around with the settings on the PS5, I found an option that solved the input lag for me to be able to play in 4K on my TV whereas before I had thought it had not been possible, thinking the T…

Jan 15, 20262 Entries

Jan 15, 2026

Revisiting the app

I'm bucking all conventions and adding a second entry to the app after, admittedly, a few hours iterating and tinkering with it in order to get it to its current state. I had the idea of making it a …

Jan 15, 2026

Stellar Blade cost $40

Since having bought Nate's PS5, I have quite enjoyed my time with it. I have been playing lots of The Last of Us 2, Silent Hill 2 (The Remake), as well as a game which I bought two nights ago--Ste…

Jan 8, 20261 Entry

Jan 8, 2026

No Title For Entry.

Played some Resident Evil, played some Silent Hill 2. Cleaned the house. What are my next steps? Shall I inundate myself with art or experiences? Shall I begin becoming more open with others? Each da…